D Y R

Did people really do and deserve to get those second chance that they were always talking about? Or did they just get lucky?

How these things actually work? I mean, it was a stupid mistake......or is it? To not letting people peaked into your life and suddenly after months, you started to open chances, wondering if it's possible to start all over again from scratch?

Is it consider to be a closed-minded person? An unconsiderable woman? Or it was just simply stupid? Blindly pushing people away who was actually deserve to stay, just to hold on to an uncertain reason. Or not even gave time to flow and take control of the moment. Oh imagine how stupid I was back then.

It's now come to a point where all the dissapointment gathers. Should I or shouldn't I? Such a shame though to begin it from my side, but is it too selfish to wish that he would start it all over again? Then what should and where should we begin? 

Maybe keep in touch would be a suitable reason to start. However to carry on from there? Is it even possible? Is it really what is necessary, or is it just a temporary loneliness I could not handle?